Today wanted to have a talk with her. Thought i could get over things. but in the end i ended up crying thru my conversation n screwed up everything. guess.. its over..

whats the point of living on when u dont have something to look forward to. That "something" isnt jus something that u can come out with as a replacement. It is the feel jus to be able to see u again every weekend, to know that after every cry, there is someone that is beside u to accompany u.

i scared pain.. else i could have ended my life right now. It hurts so much inside that i couldnt feel anything now. trying to be the usual me. crapping around. Its tiring.

god.

thank you for everything you have given me. be it good or unpleasant. i had had enough. Please dont let me suffer anymore. take me away. suicide death go hell.. so dont let me suicide please.. do it ur way.

Nites to all.