Today wanted to have a talk with her. Thought i could get over things. but in the end i ended up crying thru my conversation n screwed up everything. guess.. its over..

whats the point of living on when u dont have something to look forward to. That "something" isnt jus something that u can come out with as a replacement. It is the feel jus to be able to see u again every weekend, to know that after every cry, there is someone that is beside u to accompany u.

i scared pain.. else i could have ended my life right now. It hurts so much inside that i couldnt feel anything now. trying to be the usual me. crapping around. Its tiring.

god.

thank you for everything you have given me. be it good or unpleasant. i had had enough. Please dont let me suffer anymore. take me away. suicide death go hell.. so dont let me suicide please.. do it ur way.

Nites to all.

Bath n never dry hair = Holiday!

Yesterday nite felt very sticky.. so went for bath.. and i went to sleep straight after that.. haha.. guess what.. fever liao.. wake up i felt my head weigh heavier then my body.. LOL

2day take MC stay at home rest and play Cabal Online too! LOL.. when sick.. anything also canot do 1.. the only thing that will definitely go on is GAMING...

Aiyo die.. now 12 liao still haven go see doc.. XD.. My MC~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

WTF can i do =(

Sometimes i really have no aim in life.

Every week days, ill be lookin forward to weekends.. and now its sat.. and i duno what to do >_< Created an account on Viwawa.com 2day.. a webbie pple can play games like Dai Di n mahjongs.. its quite interesting.. u can actually cheat in the game by using the skills.. LOL Hmm..

Anyway a news from my boss yesterday.. Cuz currently we are looking for a Assistant .. but there aint anyone who wants yet.. And the person we all dislike most, also known as the person who runs over pple with his car no matter where u are.. Hes gona apply for it >__< Fuck.. life will suck up as long as there is a assistant like him here.. =\ Cant believe there are such god damn MMFs like him alive.. LOL.. Hope our good camp mate will apply for the post after he ORD before that fellow does.. Our happiness will be in your hands.. XD

Blog Revived

Spent 4 days editing this blog.. i hate to have credits given to others.. so bobian.. steal pple code.. then do full editing.. XD i dont think anyone can spot where i stole this skin unless u viewing my source =\

Have been thru a rough time the pass 1 month.. Seen alot, learnt alot.. I sometimes jus dont understand why a relationship of 4 yrs + together could just be so easily let go.. Hais.. I stuffed myself with tons and tons of games to cover my pain..

well recently abit more free then last time.. lesser testings in camp.. so go camp Zuo Mei You (do no thing) & did a little bit of not standard stuffs.. very happy to see those things we indented for came liao.. got fridge in office.. Pillows.. and NEW BEDs coming soon!!

since when got NSF pple so heng 1 sleep aircon room.. HAHA..
i think im gona love staying in..Stay in camp... Kbkp with IMFs in office, Smoke at illegal smoking points, and leave my snack wrappers and ration box around.. Although keep gana kb.. Come to think of it.. i think i was the 1 who started with those punk language in office.. hehs.. (*so go ahead folks.. nothings gona happen... only if u see the prata car comes around the corner, n knock u down n u bleed to death my dear bitches.. .. XD*) - for IGTS Personnels.. XD